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6 Years To Long, Elliott

You'll always be a mystery to me, but you'll always have my heart.

Last Goodbye

"I just imagine him laying on his back in the water, and singing, I think he had this thought, I hope this second will last forever... and it did."

Houssaye

"Tell me whom you love and I will tell you who you are."

The Little Prince

"You are not at all like my rose," he said. "As yet you are nothing. No one has tamed you, and you have tamed no one. You are like my fox when I first knew him. He was only a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But I have made him my friend, and now he is unique in all the world."

And the roses were very much embarrassed.
"You are beautiful, but you are empty," he went on. "One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you, the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is she that I have sheltered behind the screen; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three that we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing. Because she is my rose."

And he went back to meet the fox.
"Goodbye," he said.
"Goodbye," said the fox. "And now here is my secret, a very simple secret: It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."

Happy Birthday Elliott

I feel cheated out of seeing and listening to what you would have done if you were still here, thank you for always being there for me, and for continuously reminding me why the world is beautiful. XO

Baby Britain - Elliott Smith

"I'm never gonna know you now, but I'm gonna love you anyhow."

Michael Jackson, Saying Goodbye To A Legend

1958-2009

Say what you want about the King of Pop, but to say he was anything less than a cultural icon, someone who changed the face of music, and the world for that matter would be the only crime.
I'm not a very emotional person, but as I watched Michael Jackson's Memorial from my house, as soon as they rolled out his golden casket, I was pulled in and I broke down.
Looking back at this moving memorial that celebrated his life, it was nearly impossible to not have tears in your eyes when Brooke Shields honored her friend by reliving heart-felt memories, as she joked about Michael's glove asking "Whats up with the glove?" and comparing him not to a King, but to The Little Prince, one of my personal favorite books, where she read a passage. "What moves me so deeply about this sleeping prince is his loyalty to a flower--the image of a rose shining within him like a flame within a lamp, even when he's asleep... And I realized he was even more fragile than I thought. Lamps must be protected. A gust of wind can blow them out."
Rev. Al Sharpton addressed Michael's kids during his eulogy by saying "I want his children to know there was nothing strange about your daddy, it was strange what your daddy had to deal with." Which prompted a standing ovation, Michael's daughter Paris being one of the first to stand. But what is undeniably the most powerful words of the memorial came from that very same little girl, which before that moment had never spoken to the public, Michael's family lowered the microphone so his daughter could say her final goodbye to her father. “Ever since I was born, daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine,” she said, while choking back tears. “I just want to say I love him so much.”

Vote For Haley

So she can go to school, we love education.

My Favorite Photo (I've Ever Taken) Brickfish

So, I Graduated

... and I looked sharp doing it.

Portland, OR

I fell in love with a city.

CAN ATTACK!

Hilarious.

This Is Difficult

I wont write about the whole Miley Cyrus/Radiohead thing.
I wont write about the whole Miley Cyrus/Radiohead thing.
I wont write about the whole Miley Cyrus/Radiohead thing.
I wont write about the whole Miley Cyrus/Radiohead thing.

Surgery: The Aftermath

Nothing says staying awake like throbbing, shooting pain, useless medications, and a left toe wrapped in a comical amount of gauze.



Go ahead laugh, it's hilarious, just in the worst way possible.

The Oscar Goes To...

Of course I watched the 81st Academy Awards, but I was really waiting for one specific award, Best Actor.
They read the names.... Mickey Rourke, Brad Pitt.... yeah yeah, lets get on with it! I was literally dying of anticipation, when finally, there it was... and the Oscar goes to...... Sean Penn!

Milk, by far one of the best films ever created, I'm a sucker for anything Van Sant, Sean Penn captured the very essence that was Harvey Milk, he, without any doubt, deserves that award. Congratulations.

Taking Chance

This film is based on the true story of Lieutenant Colonel Michael Strobl's journey returning, Lance Corporal Chance Phelps, home.
This is a war film, not about the fight, but about the untold story of what happens when you don't make it out. A truly inspiring look into the delicate, virtually silent, process of returning the fallen men and women that fight for us everyday, back home. I definitely recommend this movie, by far one of the best I've seen recently, it's moving, it's eye opening, and it leaves you with an incredible sense of honor.

Bill Maher and Religulous

Religulous is derived from both: Religion and Ridiculous.
Anyone who knows me, knows that I've been dying to see this movie since the very second I heard of its existence. I love Bill Maher, he's my sarcastic equal, we share a lot of the same views, if left alone in a room, we'd go crazy with our cynicism and worldly debates. If anything, we need more people like him, people who contradict based on facts, shaking things up with humor, someone who isn't afraid to fight against an idea just because its popular... who likes normal anyway?

This is a provocative documentary going against one of the most powerful ideas of all, religion. That's what Maher wants to get across through his film, and after all, it is his film... that it's just that, an idea, just a thought, no facts, no evidence, something that over the years has gained notoriety so it must be true, right? Maher considers religion and faith to be detrimental to the progress of humanity, a lot fantasy and nonsense, but he also prides himself on the fact that he doesn't know, he's selling the idea of doubt not certainty.

Religion is considered a never ending battle with large masses of passionate people involved. I grew up without religion in my life, a personal choice, a choice everyone should be allowed to make for themselves. However, when you live in a state like Utah, arguably one of the most controversial places concerning religion, the topic has the power to surround you. Something I found priceless during the film was when Bill Maher and his film crew are in Salt Lake City, on the grounds of the Mormon Temple, when they begin filming they are quickly thrown off the grounds by what they lovingly refer to as the "Mormon Fuzz" they believe that they didn't look Mormon enough, to be there.This film brings humor to a lot of hush-hush topics, but also an alarming realization. A women was being interviewed about Bush's second run for office, to where she said, and I quote "I don't know that much about politics, but I'll vote for President Bush because of his faith." So, where exactly do we draw that religious line? Perhaps I'm naive, but when is it that we accept that everyone has their own opinion, their own religion, their own view and it shouldn't always revolve around the general conscientious, as far as I'm concerned to many have died over certain beliefs... to much hate is spread in the name of... when do we realize that yeah, some of this, is pretty ridiculous.

Hannah Montana, How Could You?

Its been made fairly apparent, that Miley Cyrus can't actually take a picture without being offensive or pissing someone off, word of advice Miley.. stop doing stupid things when that little black box, you know, the thing with the lens... that flashes... is around.

Warning: Don't Drive During Death Blizzards

I'm going to Tarantino this story a little bit, of course, without the dramatic music, fight scenes, and untimely death, you can fill in those blanks.

So there I was, sweating and panic stricken, my life literally flashing before my eyes, or maybe that was the headlights of the oncoming cars blinding me? But either way, terror ripping through my body as I made a turn on a winding road during a horrific snow storm, aka the one going on right now. BUT ALAS, as I made my turn, my car didn't feel the necessity to follow suit, this is the moment, where I know, oh dear god, I'm screwed. There I go, slipping and sliding and narrowly missing a fence, as I get stuck in a ditch. This is the monotonous fun part, where I'm going back and forth, back and forth, trying to get out of this hell hole, that's trapping me and my beloved Jeep, Kurt, you can only imagine cars have begun forming a line behind me out of sheer annoyance. But here, we reach the climax in my little adventure, where I jut out of this ditch with full throttle, charging into the opposite lane. Drivings fun isn't it? But no need to feel bad for me, feel bad for the fence, the person walking in that weather? and the car I almost hit, and for what? to bring a book back to the library, go figure.

I'm moving to California.

4/4/1979- 1/22/08

I'm not over it

Let Freedom Ring From Washington DC

Watching the Inauguration today I felt an extreme pride for my country, one that I haven't felt in a long time. The minute Obama placed his hand on the same bible that Lincoln had been sworn into office with, shows just how far this country has come, and just how far we still need to go. No matter the color of his skin, his beliefs, or whether you feel him worthy or not, this day marked a significant time in all of our histories, as Americans, a new era has definitely begun.

The message of hope seemed to ring true as this years Inaugural theme, Colin Powell called it a "Proud day for all Americans." Most people didn't believe they would see the first African American President in their lifetime, many echoed the words of the late, great Dr. Martin Luther King, it only seemed appropriate this day rides on the coattails of his birthday. Dr. King once said "Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere." He asked that we should overcome terror and violence through extending hope and share the American dream... and to let freedom ring. In 1961 John F. Kennedy was sworn into office and during his Inaugural speech he famously said "Ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country." These men were not silenced by the bullet that took their lives, they live on in the hearts of the people who believe their words, and now through a great man who obviously learned from the men and women that came before him.

It will no doubt be a tremendous struggle for President Obama, he will have to face things that no other President has ever had to face, It's now his job, and our job as Americans to rebuild this country, through the war we struggle with everyday and our economy lying in ruins. It's not easy being President, probably the only argument that kept me from bashing my head into a wall during Bush's Presidency (might I add that the highlight of my day, during this historic event, was when Bush got on the helicopter one last time, to go back home to Texas) I, however, have total optimism for the next couple years, I feel the change, the strength behind his words, and now I need to feel the unity, that only we as human beings, can bring about. Welcome, President Barack Obama, the 44th President of the United States.

Whoa

I'm 18, when did that happen? and where was I?

Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd; Labour and rest, that equal periods keep; "Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep;" Desires compos'd, affections ever ev'n, Tears that delight, and sighs that waft to Heav'n. Grace shines around her with serenest beams, And whisp'ring angels prompt her golden dreams. For her th' unfading rose of Eden blooms, And wings of seraphs shed divine perfumes, For her the Spouse prepares the bridal ring, For her white virgins hymeneals sing, To sounds of heav'nly harps she dies away, And melts in visions of eternal day.
-excerpt from Eloisa to Abelard, Alexander Pope